If you're not ok, here are some video resources which I've found useful in dark times.
I will also add resources you can contact if you're not ok.
Please talk to someone. It doesn't have to be right now, and it doesn't have to be anyone specific. You can do it by text, or by phone, or my whatever means you're comfortable using. But just consider the option that before you do anything, you are allowed to talk to someone.